“Hello, I’m sorry, I lost myself”

“Hello, I’m sorry, I lost myself”

So, um, hello! I know, it's been a while. Life happened. This got long, so the update is under the cut. In quasi-chronological order: I was hospitalized for most of a week in February and was out of work for a week. I was on disability for the entire month of March. This is a long and complicated story and I don't feel like repeating it here for the ten...

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January 2020: State of the Natalie

The current state of the Natalie is...not great. More below the cut. Still trying to get to the bottom of the ascites; I've had appointments with doctors at both Penn and Jefferson and they both need more data before we can decide on a path of action. That data collection happened today, so maybe in a couple of weeks? I really need answers and a path...

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How lucky I am to be alive right now

Four months ago, I collapsed at work. Here's the short version: I had gallstone pancreatitis which turned into necrotizing pancreatitis and I spent the better part of three months in the hospital. I was on a lot of painkillers, particularly at the beginning and the first month is mostly a blur. I've been home for a month and I started back to work last...

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Hello! I'm Natalie Luhrs.

I write about books, culture, disability, and whatever else strikes my fancy. I have many opinions.

I am a two-time Hugo Award finalist, in 2017 for Best Fan Writer and in 2021 for my essay “George R.R. Martin Can Fuck Off Into the Sun, Or: The 2020 Hugo Awards Ceremony (Rageblog Edition)” in the Best Related Work category.

Please do not offer me medical advice. I have something like 10 doctors and it’s already pretty challenging to keep up with what they want me to do. I do not have the bandwidth to process any advice that doesn’t come from one of my doctors, no matter how well meant the advice may be. Thank you!

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"It's chaos, be kind."
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