Back in January, I thought I’d draw every day for a month as part of the Tiny Daily Habits course I was taking and that would be it–instead, it’s turned into a daily art practice.

And I have to admit, that calling it an “art practice” isn’t something that rolls trippingly off my tongue (or my fingers)–not at all. I’ve been making visual art of one type or another since at least 2011. That’s five years. And I’ve had periods where I’ve done a lot of drawing and painting and periods where I haven’t really done any. I’ve taken a lot of online art classes and finished very few of them.

Apparently, just like with planners, I need to do my own thing. Most online classes teach you how to draw like the instructor–which is fine, I suppose, but I’m tired of drawing dead-eyed girls with weird proportions. Dead-eyed white girls–the online art class community is overwhelmingly white and overwhelmingly affluent.

I took last year off from online art classes and was happier for it.

But I also wasn’t making much art, so when I saw an artist I follow in Instagram mention the Tiny Daily Habits course, I jumped at it. It wasn’t expensive and it was only a commitment for a month–a month isn’t hard. I got a tiny notebook and decided to make myself accountable by posting to Instagram, and much to my surprise, it’s developed into one of the things I do every day no matter what.

I’ve drawn a lot of circles. But I like drawing circles. And I can see that my composition is improving (slowly!) and that my circles are often deliberately wonky now instead of accidentally wonky. I’m having fun with colors and materials–I have an embarrassing number of unused watercolor journals that I’m aching to fill with paintings of circles with ink outlines. And now I know that I’ll get to them, eventually. I’m looking at the colors I gravitate towards and making plans to rework my watercolor palette to accommodate those colors instead of the ones I think I should have.

This is all immensely valuable–I feel like I’m developing a voice as a visual artist, and I am enjoying the hell out of the process. It doesn’t matter if I never sell anything or if my sketches never become more than they are, my enjoyment of the process and the result is more than sufficient.

And most valuable of all, it’s helping me quiet my inner critic–the one that tells me that no one cares about this stuff and why are you putting this stuff on the internet because someone’s going to come along and punch you in the face any moment and you don’t want to get hurt so you might as well just not–and you know what? That’s not exactly a helpful thing to let live in my head so most of the time I manage to tune it out. I’m hoping that I can transfer this new skill to other areas of my life. Because that would be awesome.

But for now, I’m going to enjoy my daily drawing and see where it takes me.

If you’d like to follow along, I post every day on Instagram.